3 & 1/2.
At times it doesn't sound like its a long amount of time at all.
Other times it feels like it sounds like a short amount of time.
So what I'm feeling right now, tonight, I'm not sure how to describe it.
Sad I guess.
For some reason they have my boyfriend working over night tonight, 10-6.
Like, he gets off at 6 in the morning.
Yea, took me a while to actually process that happening.
But it is happening.
Call me a baby.
Go ahead really, I already talked to my Mom tonight and that's what she said, she thinks me feeling this way is somewhat funny. If I weren't me maybe I'd be laughing too.
I don't know what I'm going to do.
I don't know if I'm going to sleep.
I cant imagine being able to stay awake all night.
But I also cant imagine sleeping without BF.
I loveeeeeee sleeping, but going to bed without him just doesn't sound good at all.
At night, I hear lots of noise like cars going by with music, somebodies dog going through bushes, the house shifting/settling.
But it is very hard to convince me that those noises are not burglars, psycho killers yelling, break ins/robberies, wild animals.
But BF does a great job of that convincing and he's always been right, no burglars.
But I'd much rather be alone during the day.
3+ years spent going to bed with the same person.
One night alone during these particular hours feels so weird.
But don't worry I'm toughing it out somehow :)
*(if you are laughing at me going crazy over just this one night, please feel free to stick around and next month you can laugh at me panicking over the thought of spending 6 whole days/nights away from him)